Welcome to the Gospel of Bella: A new series from segments of my diary, past journals, and archives that spoke to me and other readers. Take what you need from any quotes and leave the rest.
Quotes:
- “The good news is you plant the seed. The bad news is all plants grow.”
- “I stopped confusing intensity with intimacy.”
- “Struggle doesn’t make me worthy. Existence does.”
- “Even pain was proof I was still alive enough to love.”
- “No matter where I’m at, I’m always going to be loved by those I’m energetically matched with. So I’ll be obsessed. And unapologetic. Because I’ll be loved either way.”
- “I can’t reason it. I can’t reason why I just can’t be myself. I can’t reason why I never give up. I can’t reason why despite having no engagement, I post and I write even when I don’t want to. Yea I see potential, but statistically, financially, and most importantly analytically, there’s no reason for me to continue going; in fact there’s more reason to stop. But even if I died tomorrow, I will do it all again in another life. And honestly, I think that’s why I chose to be here. Everything I stopped myself from doing, everything I withdrew on, I came to do in this life. That’s why I have a million passions. That’s why I can’t not be myself. I chose to be here to put everything that’s been on my soul’s heart into the world one last time.”
- “I know what it feels like to be my dream self — happy, worry-free, and radiant — and I can feel that anytime.”
- “I realized that when God told me to be silent a long time ago, I interpreted that externally. I assumed he wanted me to close my eyes, lock the door, pray in silence, learning and abiding from within, giving power to nothing external, etc. But then it hit me: He didn’t mean external silence. He meant internal. He wanted my mind to be silent. Silent from doubt, worry, and thought in general. I can meditate and not hear a peep from anything outside of me, but that’s not the silence he was referring to.”
- “I can feel my mom’s presence. Just because I’m thinking about it. To call something, a thought, not only do I give it life, I give it presence.”
- “I also wanted to mention my further grace to God. I am at a point in my life, in my wisdom, where it’s not only impossible to go back, but I don’t even identify with remnants of my past. I physically look at past situations as if they’re separate alternate lives or memories of an alternate life. Which they are.”
